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Anxiety (n.) is the cutting edge at the heart of evil: sickness, aging, rotting flesh are its modalities — through them dying is as it were lived.
Despair (n.) despairs as the evil of the flesh: bodily pain is anxiety's very depth, not an extra added to some tragic wisdom.
Evil (n.) strikes me as though it sought me out — as though there were malice, as though there were someone; the first lament, 'why are you making me suffer?', is already a prayer to a you.
Horror of evil (n.) is itself where evil reveals my association with the Good: our impossibility of accepting evil is our waiting on the good.
Metaphysics (n.) now asks its first question not as Leibniz did — why is there something rather than nothing? — but as: why is there evil rather than good?
The Soul (n.) is woken by evil: God hurts me to tear me out of the world as unique and exceptional — as a soul.
The Soul (n.) of the believer awaits something that infinitely exceeds its waiting — its goal is far beyond whatever it aims at.